I had a really rough day yesterday for some reason. Really, I just had a pity-party couple of hours for me! HA! I'm back on top today! That's what really matters in the long run. It's not IF we get down, but WHEN we get down, do we get back up, dust ourselves off and move forward.
So what yesterday? I'm not real sure, actually. But I started to feel sorry for myself a little again about being alone. Today I know that it will happen "when it's supposed to". I think it's really about the fact that I hate dating. It's so tough when you're older and there are busy lives, kids and fear. I'm also a little lonely. I know I'm not supposed to be lonely, but I am. I'm lonely for adult affection. Don't get me wrong, I have fantastic friends near and far, but that is not the same as the physical and emotional affection from a significant other.
I had my last parent-teacher conferences this week. Several of my students who are single parents. A major issue for us single parents in this area is that it is not common to be a single parent for a variety of reasons so people do not understand it or know how to support it. In talking to these parents, I heard them having the same issues I feel so I know I am not alone. I am lucky in the fact that I have an education but I still feel many of the same things they feel; the frustration in "getting it all done" while working full time, having no one else to help with discipline when you are at your "wit's end", doing all of the cooking, cleaning, homework help, bill paying, emotional giving, guilt when I take time for myself, etc.
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